I believe in HOPE, FAITH, LOVE, and GOD. Hope is one thing I have to make throughout the day with my life challenges. My faith knows that I rely on hope to get me through life. And love leads me to the best version of myself . But when it comes to GOD, that’s when I question myself and life. I know there is a GOD, but I also know that God wouldn’t help me if I didn’t do most of the work myself
Here is the first in a four-part series called HOPE. FAITH, LOVE, AND GOD. I am starting with GOD first because that is the one I have the most complex relationship with. I know there is a GOD, but to me, there feels like I have a roadblock between us.
Before reading this blog, please note that blogs are people’s feelings and thoughts about subjects. I’m not writing this to be controversial but rather to tell my feelings or opinions. Also, to make a point that people with disabilities have their own minds. I may have a physical disability that limits how I move, but it doesn’t affect my mind, thoughts, or beliefs. To be a fully respectful disability or able-body, we should be open-minded to anyone or anything in life and be open-minded to anyone and one’s opinion. People’s thoughts and ideas are what make the world go round.
It can be easy to see the world in rose-colored glasses today when the world isn’t so pretty. Nowadays, people are more sensitive about what they believe to be correct. You are more susceptible to some things; you are also more close-minded when hearing others out. Yes, we should be sensitive to people’s wants, needs, and opinions, but I don’t think we should tiptoe around them not to hurt their feelings or disrespect what they believe and feel is suitable for their lifestyle. On the other hand, we as people with disabilities need not be so angry about our disability to show the world that we can be just as open-minded as any able-body person.
As a person with a disability, sometimes I’m not taken seriously. When I feel like I’m not being taken seriously, I give myself two opinions: hold my opinion beliefs or tell people how I see things to prove I’m more than my disability. Nowadays, many things are tricky for me to discuss, and opening up nowadays can be slippery. One of the subjects I find hard to discuss is religion.
I fully don’t understand religion and find it boarding, for lack of a better word. I also feel like I have a roadblock with God. As a child, my parents gave my brothers and me the foundation of religion. When we were old enough, they sat us down and told us we were old enough to choose faith or have a relationship with God; we decided not to go to church and not have a close connection to GOD. I can’t speak for my brothers because we each think and feel differently about the whole religion/God aspect.
As a person with a disability, I feel like when I’m socializing, people in the disabled community shame me at times because I’m not a religious person. I feel like people in the disabled community focus on religion/GOD way too much to help them and, in turn, don’t help themselves. My perspective on this, if you are going to believe in GOD because of your disability, you will have to put in the physical work because, hate to say it, GOD isn’t physically here to be your pt and physically stretch you every day.
I believe in GOD and what he stands for. I have the roadblock because I feel GOD is a challenge. The challenge I have with GOD is why he gave me these challenges in life. As I’m writing this, I am unsure if I should blame GOD for the challenge I have or if he gave me these challenges, or did GOD made me the way he wanted me.
My goal this year is to find some understanding of my relationship with GOD. I want to say I genuinely have a sincere, equal relationship with GOD. I believe in having a relationship, and it should be a partnership, just like any relationship in life. What I see nowadays on social media is a 911 button. When people post out for prayers or use GOD’s name, I wonder if they honestly know who they are asking for and the power of GOD. I don’t want to be the kind of person who has spread my thoughts to everyone. I feel GOD is personal, and everyone has to make their minds up. These are my thoughts and feelings.